Savor your mistakes, let them shape you.
I’ve been thinking about my Dad the past couple days, most likely because my parents just watched our kids for a weekend. As my thoughts drifted from how fortunate I’ve been to grow up in a loving family it also made me realize that it isn’t the happiest of times that I’m going to remember as the years pass. Sure, I’ll remember those too but I’m more drawn toward the ‘tough’ love times and how they shaped who I am. The times where my normally gentle and lighthearted father was overwhelmed with frustration and anger. It’s those moments that resonated years later and took a foothold in my mind, leading me to shape how I wanted to act as an adult.
In the big scheme of things, how I conduct myself both personally and professionally and my views on life were directly affected by the mistakes of my youth and how I moved on from them.
As I continue in my profession for the 14th year I have realized something as well. The professional mistakes, just like those teenage acts of lunacy are the moments that irk me. I cringe when I think about something I’ve done that is stupid, overlooked or simply lacked forethought.
It may sound crazy, but I am thankful for these moments and love that they make me feel regretful. This emotion has been a great driver to help perfect my profession. In anything we spend time on, it should be worthwhile. In order to be worthwhile personally, I want to do everything in my power to improve day after day and with each interaction. If things always go smooth, there would be no catalyst to change or grow. I love taking a break like anyone else and simply enjoy doing nothing. Some of my favorite moments are exactly that!
My love of doing nothing helps me keep a running thought in my head. “If I choose to put energy into this, I want to give it 100%” When I work towards 100%, that includes improving. Thank goodness I’ve made enough mistakes to understand, there is always something more to work on.
I’ll never be perfect, but I can certainly try.